Not Ready
2006-09-14, 16:20

Oh so gloomy this morning. I find that my body isn't really ready for fall. I really don't feel like I've gotten enough sun this summer, and the prospect of six or seven months of gray does not please me in the least. You may ask me then, why the hell am I in Ohio? Why the hell are you in Medina County, which statistically gets clear skies for only about twenty percent of the year? Well, I had the luck of being born around here, and I have the further luck of owning a house here, and no prospect of being able to move (barring dire circumstances) for the next sixteen years.

Usually when I hear people complain about the weather around here, I think to myself, 'geez, you're in Ohio, you think you'd be used to it by now.' But sometimes it gets to be too much, all the gray. It's going to be a hard winter, physically. Or mentally. Or both; they're both ties together, after all.

I've been having trouble sleeping all week. Last night was the first time since Saturday that I managed to sleep through most of the night, making it all the way to only 15 minutes before my alarm would have gone off. The night before I was up every hour or so, and I even had to take off my CPAP mask at 3am, something I've only needed to do once or twice before since I got the thing. I dunno what my problem is; it's not anxiety or stress, it's not illness, it's not discomfort or pain. I just don't get it. But most likely it's temporary, so unless this keeps up for weeks I'm not going to worry. Much.

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